Please tell me know the history behind history

Bangladesh also has a pathetic history of excessive fight with own army, in 1971 we sacrifice 300000 people, 30000 women were raped by army within 9 months. That’s why I know the pain of people’s sufferings.
When I visited May 18 memorial park in Kwangju and attend to the pathetic description of killing, I can’t control myself, I was crying in the cemetery. I try to feel the pain of the victim’s family. After that I visited the May 18 memorial building, It is same as it was as at that day. I feel that the building can make conversations with me. I try to feel it by a humanistic point of view. I ask it, please tell me the history of the behind the history. Why people kill people who have same blood? Behind the history, for a future peaceful world we should find out the real history, I try to feel its heart beat. I heard the sound of death smells of blood .I have many question about democracy and truth of democracy in contemporary world.
I did a 30 min performance with a black box made by Cloth, It made various form within the performance time but finally it was backed by same form as it was before. I explain the reality and truth changed by the searching but it is not easy to find out the real thing. The targeted audience was emotional because of the space and specific national day in Korea although I use a music which was very close to the audience by national feelings.

“Searching for missed mystery of happiness”

Time always change the direction of thinking, in different age we like to think different categories of topics, it also depends on the life style, influence of society, cultural behaviors, political environment. I am trying to understand my time and surroundings by my creative visual practice, there is many way of expression, many option of media and methods. I am mostly focusing on the thought and inner feeling and knowledge about inter-personal-socio-life. I also have consciousness about my target audience and international socio political situation; in my work I try to be sensitive about the materials and object’s own language and transformation diversity of its identity. For presentation of work I like to make it easy and communicative to my targeted (artists non-artist) audiences.
From the middle of lest year I was thinking about the relation between nature and life within an spiritual context, I was visited some remote and deep natural landscape with spiritual and religious mood, But I get different understanding by every visit, I start to explain the experiences by some spontaneous drawing to using papers, ink and nib pan. I just release myself and create some mysterious illusion and creatures on the super natural space where we can visit freely without thinking and getting any pre-information’s, which gave me a close touch of an unidentified and unexplainable situation of mind, The thinking about god and super natural power sometime overlapped each other inside of my mind but the life which I live is not mach with that, It is a mysterious situation, although life has real socio biological and materialistic need too, I don’t believe on any specific religion, but I can not deny the feeling come from prayers, I distinguish that the feelings come from visiting nature and pray to god has some similarity, It can make me happy and refreshed, some time both of those activity run corresponding and substitute, I want to know the reason of that kind of happiness, I thought there is the hidden point why most of the people in the world like to think about god and goddess, why people like to think about supernatural power or something like that, what is the mechanisms in side our body and mind which encourages us to do that? So it is a searching for a mystery of happiness. It is a journey through the unknown way of a conceptual world which will serve a new epoch.

Activity: In this project I have to create a description by drawing on paper linocut print about my understanding, and physical performance with some lighted objects and nature, Total project will be represented by a full room installation with performance photo (manipulated) Video, significant music and smell.